You know, when you struggle with depression, it is hard to find motivation to do the smallest things. Things that normally would get done, don’t get done. What are normally simple tasks appear monumental. Getting out of bed, for example. Taking a shower, preparing breakfast, making coffee… But there’s something I can still manage to do, and that is prayer.
I don’t have to pray a whole Rosary. I don’t have to even complete a Hail Mary. All I have to do is summon God and ask for his graces to just get motivated enough to get done the bare bones minimum, to ignore the Inner Mean Voice that tells me I am a failure, to get out of bed and see how my son is doing, brave my face in front of the mirror and brush my teeth.
This small prayer: “Lord, grant me motivation to get going.” is normally good enough. I force myself to get out of bed, and drag my feet around the house. I keep repeating the prayer as a mantra throughout the day. Until I find that even though I might have been dragging my feet, and skipped a few steps in the daily routine, I got things done. And at the end of the day, the realization that the motivation to get going got granted, and humility to be thankful for it.
It is easy to take things for granted, but when it comes to being grateful, even the smallest of things is something to be thankful about. Sometimes, just being grateful for breathing is enough to be grateful about, and it’s okay. I have noticed that on days that I wake up thanking God for breathing, I am set in a better mindset to deal with the day than when I wake up and complain about how hard life is with depression. Turns out gratitude is a good thing to have when you are struggling.
What are you thankful for today?